Thursday, March 26, 2009

wherever and whatever that i am now,
i feel like a fourth degree burn
subjected to salt and boiling water,
i feel diseased, i feel like
im ailing, beaten, robbed
i feel that i can decompose anytime.
i feel like meredithx93204834 and i feel
like i need to bawl 3999 times over at
3190481 decibels to remove all the poison
that has been building up.
there's no fancier way to say this,
im really having a hard time
so u can all roll your cold condescending
eyes right now.

9:11 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009

it's going to take
more than us to fight impossibility.

11:13 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

i just wanted to say that
there is no such shiz as Justice.
it all depends on how much
you want to fight for/against it.
maybe it all cancels out-
sometimes you get the better
of injustice sometimes you just don't.

sidenote: i suspect im not cut out
for school, i need to be prowling
the ulu jungles of southeast
asia/piano-ing in solitude
and not trying to fit into
the world that CAN DO ACCOUNTING/
REVENUE MGMT/OTHER ASSORTMENTS OF
NUMERICAL TORTURES.

side, sidenote: AND SHIZ I CANT EVEN
DO KOREAN - i mean WTH, AFTER ALL
THESE FANGIRLINGNEZXXX??????

6:17 PM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

problem is
people just aren't designed
to feel happy for people.
we are instinctively competitive,
selfish and envious.
the best we can manage is
pretend that we're not.
its embarrassing how much we
like to accuse others of it when
we are just as likely to be this way.
its all dark and gloomy for
people like us
with the inability to ignore even
the subtlest of human pretense
during social interactions.
it becomes even clearer that
people are great for the happier times
in life, and wanting anything more
would be ... inconvenient.

8:33 PM

Sunday, March 08, 2009

your world must be great,
but there's no way i could
uproot and just leave mine.
so this is how it has
to feel:
while we're still here,
take in every fleeting
moment and move ahead from there.

12:14 AM

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

projects and work are coming
full force
and yezzz against all odds
i photoscaped because
lifezz too hardxx.
some of what happened during
ntu's excuse for a recess week LOLZBYEZ

8:32 PM

so as most of singapore
has heard
ntu had a bad case of monday blues
yesterday (i lost my cashcard +
handed in a tragic piece of
revenue mgmt report.)
school is shizzy like that.
the dude must have been messed
up for a while before
he decided to pull a virginiatech.
the trigger factor must be like
WOAH before one would muster enough
will to stab your fyp prof.

i think sometimes what school does
to us is that it narrows our horizons,
it hypontizes us into believing
that the report deadline at 5pm is the only
thing we live for
and that GPA is an indication of
our self-worth.
and to furthur antagonize us there
is 179 and ntu's being in the
Far West of boonlay.
whatever it is
an instituition is made up of
people who made it through the
system and support the status-quo,
i don't think they have sufficient
concept of how anyone can be
an outlier or a struggler.
so maybe school has made us myopic,
narrowed our options because
we don't believe that we can settle
for anything less than ______
and then we lose sight of everything
beyond.
i guess its all just tragic,
everyone please calm down and
watch some youtube okzzz.

8:02 AM